Trucker's Wife Feeling Confused

by Sonja
(MO)

Husband has been gone now, this makes 8 weeks. Husband says he is coming home this weekend and then he turns around and says he doesn't know when he is coming home. How long can a company legally and morally keep someone away from their family?

Then he tells me he may only be home for 24 hours but he tells his parents he will be home for 4 days. I know we had a few arguments prior to his leaving out for training but not only do I feel he is my husband but my best friend and yet I don't know what to think anymore.

He says he loves me still yet when I talk about what is going on in my life with my job,taking care of our only child and my schooling he seems so disinterested. I actually found myself asking him if that is the idea of the trucking company to split us up.

I then turned around and apologized for I felt I wasn't being very supportive. He called me one night and stated he had no pictures of me with him, I went to the store bought a phone just so he would have pictures and took pictures of myself for him only.

I have a hard time sleeping at night without him, and during the day I can't stop thinking of him and for a while it was starting to affect my schooling. Feeling really confused. He tells me if the company says he has to stay out 365 days out of the year he does.

Then he asks me if I'll stay home with him for 24 hours with him when he gets home knowing I have no choice but to work and then to it will affect my schooling which is not only to benefit me but all of us.

I feel really confused he doesn't make enough with training to take care of us how can I even think of such a thing at this time?

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Mar 14, 2010
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by: Anonymous

I can relate exactly to how you feel. My husband just left for his training March 1. We was told 3 weeks but he found out once he got to Texas it would be more like 6 weeks. I feel so alone and when I talk to him I talk more to air than to him like he has nothing to say to me or realy cares about what I am saying. We been married 11 years and our marriage has been rocky and I am wondering if this was a way for him to get out of it. He says not that he is only doing this to better our life and he hasn't wanted a divorce before that he beleives a marriage is like a job something you hafe to keep working on but I feel like screaming and saying the HECK WITH IT!!!!!!!!
The only thing keeping me sane is concentrating on my job and repeating our vows we took 11 years ago. I'm trying to honor our vows and be a good wife but why should I when it seems like he could care less??? I dont know. I just hope things will get better for both of us. I wish u the best!
Mar 14, 2010
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by: Anonymous

I can relate exactly to how you feel. My husband just left for his training March 1. We was told 3 weeks but he found out once he got to Texas it would be more like 6 weeks. I feel so alone and when I talk to him I talk more to air than to him like he has nothing to say to me or realy cares about what I am saying. We been married 11 years and our marriage has been rocky and I am wondering if this was a way for him to get out of it. He says not that he is only doing this to better our life and he hasn't wanted a divorce before that he beleives a marriage is like a job something you hafe to keep working on but I feel like screaming and saying the HECK WITH IT!!!!!!!!
The only thing keeping me sane is concentrating on my job and repeating our vows we took 11 years ago. I'm trying to honor our vows and be a good wife but why should I when it seems like he could care less??? I dont know. I just hope things will get better for both of us. I wish u the best!

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