Is it Monday yet?

Life is awesome when he's at work!! When he's home it sucks. Sorry to be so negetive but he's the one who made me this way!

Hubs is a hard worker and good provider and I love that about him! However hubs can also be a douche! He's grumpy, tired and stressed when he's home on the weekends. The house is never clean enough, I spent too much money, I didn't take care of the kids. Constantly yelling and putting me down. I have bit my tounge the last time!

Ummm last time I checked our kids are healthy and happy and smart and involved in all types of activies which I take them too! Yes, I may have spent $15 out for dinner once during the week but we are busy and do a lot!

I do everything at home and work full time and take care of our Kids without help. When he is home he doesn't want to do anything with the family. Just yard work or things that have to be taken care of at home.which is fine. I understand he had things he must do! But so do I!

I wish I never got married. I don't want my husband when he's home now. He had changed his asshole ways but now I just can't stand the thought of having sex with him or even being married to him. Too much damage done over the last 7 years for me! I want out but he has made me dependent on him and I can't afford to take care of myself and our kids without him financially.

One day even if it take five years from now I will be free. Hopefully we ca stay friends but husband I want not! Btw my attitude used to be so awesome and I was full of life and happiness! Now I just feel trapped!