Im married????

by christine
(nc.)

When my husband and i first started dating he drove a dump truck locally and that was fine he was home every night, which was great. He really wasn't making that much money so he started looking for another job.

I knew he had driven a truck in the past but he said he didn't want to do it anymore. When we first started dating i told him that if he was going to work out on the road then i couldn't date him that i am unable to live in that type of relationship.

He told me no that he was done with that. After looking for a job and not having any luck he took it upon his self to get a OTR trucking job with out talking to me about it and i feel that it was just forced on me, which really pisses me off.

I know i could have left him but i was hoping that i could learn to cope. I can not. I love my husband and glad he is my husband. He is a good husband and works hard in which i am very proud of.

But i'm not sure how long i can continue to live like this. I feel so angry with him because he knew up front before he took this job and that was the one thing that i could not work with, but he done it anyway.

I miss my husband.

I feel like i am still single i do every thing alone, eat, sleep, holidays. He seems like a stranger to me when he does come home maybe 6 to 8 days a month. I hate being a truckers wife but i love being his wife.

This job is splitting us apart and i don't want that to happen. I am a good wife i do not cheat and run the roads while he is gone. I always have the house clean and i take care of things in the house.

I make sure his cloths are clean and he has what he needs for the road trip,but i get mad every time he has to leave. I go to college full time after being out of school for 20yrs. I feel more alone now then i did when i was single..

Does any one have any advice to give me in helping me learn to cope with him being gone so much?