I feel like everything keeps going downhill and I'm the only one trying

by Tania
(California)

I'm not sure where to begin but I need to vent before I have a break down .

My husband is Punjabi Indian and is an OTR truck driver. I have no problem with him being a truck driver because he was already working when I met him.

The problem is even after years of trying to fit into his culture I still feel left out. he goes and meets up with his extended family or friends but never mentions about going together.

Even though he is a truck driver I am still working because I feel the need to because my husband does not provide for our family without me asking or reminding him multiple times which makes me feel uncomfortable like if I was begging.

I mean common sense would be to deposit money in our shared account for home needs or bills but I feel he never thinks that way. keeping in mind we have 3 kids and the youngest being 3 months I had to return to work and it just makes me hate him more because I was not able to stay home.

I enjoyed breastfeeding, but now I have to stop because I don't produce the same all because I feel he just leaves and forgets about us. I'm tired of stressing about the kids, bills to pay, having to work and still be a wife and mother

He comes home just to make me more mess and if I ask for help he acts like if I offended him
a little appreciation for everything I do would be great but I just feel everything keeps going downhill and I'm tired of feeling like the only one trying.