What did I get myself into this time?

by Leah
(Mississippi)

Where to start...I have my Masters in Social Work. I met my boyfriend (ex boyfriend) 10 months ago. We spent literally hours on the phone everyday, I would cook meals for him to take on the road every week, and would meet him if he wasn't coming home to ensure he was getting food.

I did whatever to try and make his life as comfortable as I could. I got pregnant in December and it resulted in a miscarriage. Our biggest conflict in our relationship was his refusal to get off a dating site.

I will spare the details on why he refused but we all know his story remained innocent. He came home in April and lied about what he was about to do. I had a feeling and course I found that he had a woman at his house. This resulted in a huge fight and he insisted they were just friends.

This last week my friend found that he had changed his facebook status to in a relationshiip with another woman (not the one that was at his house.) All my friends thought he was trash from the beginning and they started playing investigators and that resulted in a lot of conflict.

When I went to look, I noticed he had blocked me on facebook. Of course my friend commented on his love triangle. His story.. someone was stalking him ion facebook and he put that he was in a relationship with "his friend" I told him I can't do this anymore.

Of course I have trust issues and all this is my fault. He reused to admit any wrong doing on his part. No problems are ever the result of his actions. It seems like every month some type of drama occurs.

This man was my best friend, my phone companion, my person that answered the whys in life, and my biggest motivator. He doesn't want me out of his life. He has come up with a load of crap about the fact that I'm educated and he has never felt like he was good enough for me.

He says he is not a good boyfriend and I deserve someone better; however, he wants to remain friends now that I can't do this anymore. I really have no idea why this has had such a huge impact on me.

I feel like my life has been turned upside down and I'm angry at myself for all the time and money I invested in this. I guess relationships like this are doomed to fail because of lack of trust.