Lonely Momma

by Oaklynn
(Preston ID)

My dad drive otr all growing up. I never wanted to marry a truck driver because I experienced first hand how it was. My dad missed a lot of my brother and I's life. My parents didn't get a long often. After being married for a year to my best friend he chose to work for my dad so that we could make some money. At the time we were only going to do it for a year. It's now been 3. We have a 2 year old boy and a 1 year old girl.

I am having an incredibly hard time being alone and taking care of everything by myself. I struggle with anxiety and depression. I admit that I am needy and want to be with him all the time. I have a hard time being happy if I am not with him. It's so hard to keep up with church, house, bills, kids, all of it. It's hard on him that I hate his job. He hates being away. But he loves working for my dad.

We are paid well and couldn't make as much or even enough money where we are at. We would have to relocate which would be away from family. If there is anyone in a similar situation.

Please help me. Some times I just want to give up. I'm wore out and don't feel like doing this anymore....