Hearts Don't Break Even

by Brandee
(Lafayette, Indiana)

Does the loneliness ever go away? Jason's been OTR for about a year and a half (I realize that this is NOTHING to some of you).

Most of the time, I cope fairly well. But when he has to stay out longer than usual, it's like a physical PAIN in my chest, I miss him so much.

And when he first went OTR, it was a decision that we made together. We both said that if it got to be too much of a strain on our relationship, we'd consider other employment options; that our relationship was too amazing to risk damaging it.

But now that he's out there, it's like I don't have a say in it. He and his partner are talking about starting their own company, and hiring other drivers, so that they can come off the road "eventually".

But I don't know if that's ever really going to happen, or if it's just a pipe dream.

I waited 35 years to find my soul mate, and then he went OTR. What do I do?