This will take some getting used to
by Julie Tanner
I am really new to this. My husband started driving last week. He left Sunday night and was back Friday morning. Then he left again this Sunday but he doesn't know when he will get to come home again.
It's hard having him gone like this because I am used to him being home all the time. You see, he was a stay at home dad while I went to work and supported us. Well I was laid off in February and jobs are hard to come by these days. So he decided to go into truck driving, which he did several years ago before we met, because there is a high demand for truck drivers and potential to make good money.
Having him gone most of the time is hard enough but not knowing when I will get to see him again is the worst. I know this is just as hard on him and I worry about him constantly. Monday night they left for Montana and I didn't hear from him again until this morning. Turns out he didn't have cell phone service where they went so he couldn't call or send me a text message. Needles to say I didn't sleep much last night because all I could do was worry that something bad had happened. I try not to cry but last night was just too much.
I wish I would have been better prepared for this. I had no idea it would be like this! I also figured out I need to learn how to do a few things around the house that he would normally do. For instance, a few hours after he left on Sunday the bathtub faucet started leaking really bad. I had to learn how to shut off the water and take it apart to see what the problem was. Just little things like that you don't think about until they happen. He spoiled me and took care of a lot of things and now I am faced with the fact that he won't be here to take care of them anymore. When he is home he is way too tired to do anything so I need to start learning new things.
I am sure things will get easier with time but until then I will do my best to hold it together and take care of the house and car. I just wish there were resources out there for truckers wives. Something to help us be prepared and to know what to expect. The not knowing is the hardest part. The only thing that keeps me going is my love for him and the appreciation I have for what he is doing for us. We have a wonderful marriage and I know we will make it through this, I just wish it were easier.