Stuck at home...

by Kim
(Kansas)

Life as a truckers wife...gee where should I start?? My husband has been driving a truck for 6 years now. We've been married for 15 years.

He came home one day and said he was going to quit his job and go to school to learn to drive a truck. To say I was shocked is an understatment!!!

We have 4 kids and two of them were still at home. We now have only one at home and its our only boy. He is now fourteen and misses his dad a lot.

Ok, what's it like?? It SUCKS!! I hate the fact that my husband is only home 4-5 days a month. I hate the fact that I am a single parent to teenage boy who needs a dad, I hate the fact that I have to handle everything at home by myself.

I hate the fact that when I need help with something I have to ask someone else instead of my husband. I have bought a vehicle, gone to the hospital twice, had my son go by ambulance to the hospital, dealt with numerous home repairs, had our home broken into these distractions are only a fraction of the things I have dealt with alone in the last 6 years.

But the worst part is the loneliness and betrayal I feel everyday. I miss my husband, I miss the relationship we had before he changed jobs. We were so much closer before the truck became his mistress.

We can NEVER, EVER make plans for anything because we are never sure when he will be home or for how long. When he is home it always feels like a race to get everything in, family time, our time, home repairs, car repairs, his laundry, his supplies bought and downtime for him. We also don't have many friends.

I did not sign up to be a single parent and to spend so much time alone fending for myself.

I know this sounds like a rant and I'm sorry, but I needed to get this out. Thanks so much for the opportunity!!