Of course as a child I dreamed of marrying my Prince Charming, Living in a beautiful country home, and Having my family. Then I met my husband, and it all changed. When we first met, he told me right out that he's usually gone for 10-14 days at a time, and I was ok with that. But his very first turn out really made me rethink the relationship. Did I really want to get involved with someone I couldn't count on being there for me? I quickly realized that those late night phone conversations and the time apart definately paid off when he got home. After dating for a year and a half, we got engaged and married. My dream of my country house quickly faded as we moved to a small-town apartment. I can't complain, it is very cheap and a nice place to live, but I'm not sure what the future is going to bring with a baby on the way. I have nightmares of being the 'single' partent raising my child alone as the husband drives. He never really has a set schedule, when he leaves he leaves, he could be home in a couple days or in a a month. I never know. I guess I will just have to keep learning. This was never the life I imagined, but now I can't imagine it any other way. The only advice I have to give is to stay busy when he is away. I work two jobs and am rarely home during the week. It doesn't give me as much time to miss him. Also, staying busy helps keep your mind from wondering. If I sat at home alone all the time, I would go nuts thinking about him and other women, even though I know he would never do that to me. It just takes time to develop the trust, and strength to keep it.
