Newly Married for a year and have seen my husband less than 2 month
by Sad Wife
My story might be a bit different from other truckers wife out there. When i met my husband i already knew he was a truck driver, but i had no idea what a truck driver's life is like.
When my husband asked me to marry him it was over the phone, we got married and my husband was out on the road the 3rd day of our wedding.
Since then we have moved to a different state and still he is always on the road. I am living in a small town where i have no friends or family and i don't drive so i have spent the last 8 months inside.
My husband was sweet enough to buy me a dog with whom i spend all my days and night. He comes home for 2 and max 3 days and most of those time we don't get a chance for me to get my Driver license.
Most of the time the first day of him being home he is tired, cranky and the second day we go grocery shopping, for which we have to drive almost 2 hours to get to a nice shopping area. And by the time we get back home that night husband is once again in his cranky mood.
when he goes out on the road, he apologizes for his behavior and blames it on his long hours,loneliness etc.
I Feel that he thinks, since i am at home all day and everyday i must have the better part of the deal but he doesn't realize even thought i don't have a wheel on my 800+ apt but still i am a prisoner without the freedom to go anywhere.
The only friend i have is my TV and internet. I tried making friend with neighbors but they walk away when i say Hi. I didn't realized what i was marrying into, I love my husband very much but his cranky moods, and loneliness is just kills me. I am turning into insomniac.
I don't feel like talking to my friends from before my wedding anymore, when i talk to my friends and family they ask me what's new and when they ask me that question I don't really have any answer for them.
I do talk a lot about my dog, everyone thinks its nuts that i talk so much about my dog but that is the only new thing or person in my life.
I haven't really gone anywhere, i haven't really done anything, i haven't really have my husband home for much longer than 2-3 days to have gone for a vacation anywhere.
To sum it all up I have nothing new.
I wonder if it really is worth the money? From what he earns, by the time i am done paying his/ or the way my husband likes to call it our bills, and paying for his child from his first marriage, there is hardly anything to save.
He keeps on promising me that he will find another job, but really? when will you look for another job if you are driving for 14 hours a day and when you come home you don't even have time for your wife.
I understand life on the road might be extremely hard but i wish he will let that all go the min he gets down from his truck driver's seat and comes home. I have been after all waiting to see him for many days, but when he comes in and he is so upset and cranky, i am once again all alone even when he is home.
All he wants to do according to him is seat and watch TV and i should just let him be.
I wonder if all the truck drivers are like that or am i the only one who is married to one cranky truck driver.