Lonely in California
by Tee Cee
I sit alone, sad and lonely.
I thought I could handle it. But being alone is excruciatingly hard. I'm doing everything I can to 'get a life' while he's gone. When he is home, he's just doing chores, preparing to leave, or catching up on his recorded TV shows.
We don't have we time. We talk on the phone but it's rushed because he's either sitting waiting to be off loaded, faxing paperwork etc. When he clocks out he has time to grab a meal and sleep. I want a companion for a spouse not a part time roommate!
I do a lot alone which makes me wonder why not just BE alone!? I love him. I'm sad without him. I always feel like a widow. I can't complain to him because I don't want to add to his stress.
So I sit. Alone. Sad. Lonely. Afraid of tripping up or finding a man with a 9 to 5 who is able to spend time with me. I don't want to be that girl! I just want MY man home.