A TRUCKER FIANCE'
(Laurinburg, North Carolina, US)
Well,I'd like to start this story off by saying that I am extremely happy with my fiance's employment choice, but I am not. I see my fiance' once a month, if that and it can be very frustrating. I am so not content with my situation. Worried that he is okay out there, but also holding down the home while he is away has been a roller coaster.
I miss this man dearly and he expects for me to understand that this is his job. I wouldn't be so hurt if he would at least understand my insecurities. I also worry about other woman out there at the truck stops.
I already have a hard time dealing with jealousy in the real world, but jealousy in the life of a truckers wife is for real. I mean, we all have needs and I am always wondering if he cheats on me? I understand that all men don't cheat, but being a truckers wife and you see them less and less gives the mind time to wonder.
This is really rough for he and I right now because we are getting married soon and there are so many doubts in my mind. Not to mention holidays come and go. Those times like Thanksgiving, Christmas, Birthday's are a drag. I am very disappointed that I can't spend special days with him.
He doesn't understand these thoughts I have,but I'm just hanging in there because I love him.