Seeing the end of a good marriage
I have been a truckers wife for over 2 years. It has been a lonely heart ripping experience for me.
My husband took this job cause he didn't want manual labor jobs any more. I never liked the idea of him being over the road ..
I cried and fought but he said it was till he found a local job lol yea right.
Now he wont hear of leaving it. Im left with all the responsibilities and the stress of it all.
I have Lupus and most days just walking is a problem. I am alone to be very ill and most nights cry missing what we once had.
When he is home, He turned cold and mean. He demands food and laundry done right way. He wants alone time on his computer and at night its a cold shoulder event.
I feel abandoned and neglected. I think I annoy him with my illness and I try to shut up about it.
He never bother to rush home when I was in the hospital for over a week with pneumonia.
Even the nurses thought why cant he be here ??
I feel like a girl friend who is mistreated now. My kids dont even know him anymore, he changed so much.
His world is that dam truck and independents. He pays the bills but now said he wants half for himself.
I worry there's someone else and he said im nuts.
This job took my life away. I cant leave him cause I love him. But feeling this way is killing me.
Please feel free to write back,