New to all of this

by Ryanne Jones
(Anniston AL)

I'm 22 almost 23. My husband just started training. He's been away from home for almost 2 weeks now. He will get home Saturday afternoon then leave again Sunday afternoon for another 2 weeks.

I'm not used to this and we don't live by any of my family. We moved from Michigan to Alabama so now I'm pretty alone. And we just bought a house.

I work but only 2 days a week. I'm taking 4 classes this semester working on getting my associates degree. It's really hard on me.

We've been together for almost 6 years and we've never been apart this long. To make it worse no one seems to understand why I'm always so sad. I have BPD so I'm constantly fighting against the urge to just sit in bed all day and cry.

I was doing well until my father in law started getting on my case about not quitting my job and not needing any male friends. I'm not going to cheat on my husband, I love him dearly, I just want the comfort knowing there is a guy around that can help me if something goes wrong or I end up in some kind of trouble.

I don't even know anymore. I'm just so exhausted with the stress of work, school, raising a puppy, and sleeping alone. I just need someone to say that it's ok and it will get better.

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Mar 12, 2012
It's a lot to handle NEW
by: Hervy

Hello Ryanne,

You know, as difficult as thing are, it does seem as if things will get better and you are going to be alright.

I see a smart young lady who despite having to deal with BPD is applying herself to gain additional knowledge.

I see you have the wisdom to seek the comfort of others in your journey with the additions stress and strain of having a husband who is taking a position difficult for any woman to deal with.

It also seems that your father in law may just be concern. I hope I am right. If he knows anything about the disorder, which I have just read about BPD it is entirely possible he is simply being protective over you and his son's relationship. He knows that at the right time it would be easy for a man to take advantage of you easily. However if you still think he doesn't understand your feelings, print out the page from wiki and let him learn exactly why you may experience some of the feelings that you do.

So while this may feel unpleasant, I think one way to look at it is to be blessed that he actually cares, because I know a lot of people I have met who's families don't care about them.

But what I think might be helpful for you is to find a local support group. Anniston is small, it seems you may have to go to Gadsen or more likely Birmingham.

Do a Google search four Anniston AL BPD and Call counselor and see if there is a local support group.

Also, make a call to truck stop ministries if you need someone to talk who is familiar with trucking and talking to people dealing with sadness or depression and similar circumstances.

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