New to all of this
by Ryanne Jones
I'm 22 almost 23. My husband just started training. He's been away from home for almost 2 weeks now. He will get home Saturday afternoon then leave again Sunday afternoon for another 2 weeks.
I'm not used to this and we don't live by any of my family. We moved from Michigan to Alabama so now I'm pretty alone. And we just bought a house.
I work but only 2 days a week. I'm taking 4 classes this semester working on getting my associates degree. It's really hard on me.
We've been together for almost 6 years and we've never been apart this long. To make it worse no one seems to understand why I'm always so sad. I have BPD so I'm constantly fighting against the urge to just sit in bed all day and cry.
I was doing well until my father in law started getting on my case about not quitting my job and not needing any male friends. I'm not going to cheat on my husband, I love him dearly, I just want the comfort knowing there is a guy around that can help me if something goes wrong or I end up in some kind of trouble.
I don't even know anymore. I'm just so exhausted with the stress of work, school, raising a puppy, and sleeping alone. I just need someone to say that it's ok and it will get better.