I dont have history as a truckers wife. My husband and I have been married for 11 years. We have no children cause I am not able to have any and its always just been us two.
He decided to get his CDLs because he could find no work after he was let go from his other job. He has been gone for 3 weeks now and I have went through so many emotions it's unbelievable.
I missed him the time he left but my worse day was the 4'th day he was gone. It felt like a ton of bricks hit me. I feel so alone in this world now. I know he is only trying to better our life and put food on the table but I also feel kinda abandoned.
Especially when I am at home dealing with all the business of the home and the stress of the bills when I am so use to him being here and sharing the load. I try to sound happy and OK when we talk cause I dont want him to have to worry about me when he has so much on his plate. I dont sleep well cause I miss him and worry about him, I cant function in the morning until I hear his voice and know he is OK.
I'm trying to be strong and be strong for him when I really feel like squalling and telling him to come home. I hope as times goes by I will learn to adjust and cope better!!!!
I knew when we talked about him getting his cdls it was going to be a lot of adjustment with him being gone but I had no idea it would be this hard!!!!!!!
