how do you do it
(medicine hat, an, canada)
I am newly married to a trucker. We are expecting our first child and I am starting to realize how very alone I actually am. He has children from a previous marriage and he gets to see them at least once a month which being seperated and living in different cities seemed reasonable at first. Now I'm seeing the times between slightly longer and when we do have his kids (7 and 9) it has become evident that he really has no idea how to care for them which is making me realize how little he has done. As the pregnancy progresses I am starting to realize that he really isn't going to be thereuch at all and he seems to think that that is acceptable. On one hand I feel like this is what I signed up for so get over it on the other I feel like why did we get married and start a family so I could be a single mother..... I could do that without him. I think partof it is pregnancy and hormones but I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to that understands as all my friends husband are home every night. My family is the type that really won't likely be there either so I'm feeling...... Alone.