He just left for orientation 13 hours ago..and I have not stopped crying since he left..
He just left for orientation 13 hours ago....and I have not stopped crying since he left....I was literally sick all day.
We have lived together for 10 years coming up this May 2012....We have NEVER spent a night apart!
I'm 26 years old and he is 35. I'm currently in college, and this is my second semester.
After he got laid off last August, he decided to go to truck driving school--we had talked about it before over the years but it always ended with me telling him that I didn't think I could handle it. (Which if it had been the other way around, he would had felt the same, even if it was to better our life together.)
Anyways, so he decided he really wanted to get his CDL so he went to school with the big intention of getting a local job FIRST, and IF he couldn't he might go OTR. --which I'd told him I didn't know if I could handle still. I voiced my opinion considerably a few times, and then I left it alone, and decided to try to be supportive.
I knew that it would be hard, and that I would miss him, but I had no idea it would be this hard.
He's going to be gone for 5-6 weeks.
I try to think positive....but I just miss him so much it's almost unbearable, and I know he's trying to do work to help us, but it's killing me. I don't foresee the pain getting any better.
I'm happy to find out that there's a place for other women like me.
Because everyone else just acts like it's nothing....and I understand because I didn't think it would be this bad until I experienced it for myself.
I would like to find out how all of you are feeling after your spouses have been gone now for 2-3 weeks, and 3-4 weeks.?
How are you managing?
Does it really get easier, or not, because I don't think it will?
Should I just ask him to come home?
I'd also like to talk to any of you whose spouses just left, and are experiencing similar feelings as me. I'll leave my email address or even my phone number. I need someone to talk to that's in the same situation as I am.