Dont want him to do this!!
Hi I am the 39 yr fiance' of a 33 yr old truck driver. We have been together for 1yr and 8 months.
We are both divorced with kids from previous. I have 3 a 161/2 yr old girl, 12 yr old boy and a 21/2 yr old boy his son is almost 16 and lives in another state but stays with us all summer.
We are a tight family and love one another very much. We just found out we are pregnant possibly with twins. We bought a house together back in November and he had a "local" job.
The hours and work were horrible so he left to find a closer "local" job only to find nothing!
We are now near broke and he has decided to take a otr position with company he was with before. We need $ BAD so ive just let him make the choice to take this job.
Anyone whos been pregnant (with twins or otherwise) knows how freaking emotionally unstable you are. Im out of my mind with woe.
I cant tell him i hate this and don't want him to do it because it will stress him out. He's aware of my disdain to some degree but just seems like this is what he really wants.
We have had a great relationship this entire time but I am worried that I will be incredibly unhappy with this arrangement. I had been a single mom for 5 yrs when i met him with 3 kids and 4 jobs.
I no longer work and I am most grateful for that but id work a thousand jobs to not have to raise this family alone again.
I just don't think i can go back to it. I already feel resentment because I know i will have to do EVERYTHING and I will be stuck here with kids while he lives a free life.
Part of the problem is that I have always desired to be a truck driver when my kids were grown so he's living my dream too while i live the nightmare of holding it all down without him.
The money in,my opinion for the work, SUCKS! We have minimum amount of bills but he likes a certain lifestyle and wants to work hard for it- one of the very reasons i love him and the flip side is hating the career choice!
Help im trying to be positive but my mind keeps bringing me back to knowing myself and what i can deal with and this isn't it!!!