Anxious about leaving to go over ther road
When my husband decided to go into trucking, we made the decision that we would give notice on our rental when he finished training and I would go with him on the road if he liked it.
We have no children at home and we have been wanting to relocate anyway. Well, he has come to the end of his training and he LOVES it. I have been very excited about joining him and hope to eventually get my CDL so we can drive team.
We have worked together before and have really never been apart until he left to go OTR. He should be home in 2 days. I am supposed to be out of our house in 3 days.
So I have been packing the house, finding a home for my pets, the rear brakes on my car went out (of course the parts I need for my car are not ones that you can just run down to Oreilly's for) and since I am not from here I have had a really, really hard time finding any one to help me move, (can't afford a moving company) but did finally find a young man whom I paid to help me with the heavy stuff.
Overall I am feeling very very stressed.
Actually, I have had a good outlook about it all and know that I am just doing my part so that we can be together when he gets finished.
My dilema really comes from the fact that the last few days, my husband has been very stressed, testing out and trying to work his way back to the terminal so I can get to him.
Everytime he calls me he yells and hangs up on me. I haven't even told him about all of the things that have gone wrong on this end. If he makes me cry he yells because I don't understand and am just trying to make it more difficult on him.
Believe me, I understand as well as I can due to the fact that I have not been in his shoes. But now I am feeling very shut down to him. I don't care if he calls because I don't dare talk, I just have to listen.
My feelings are hurt and I am not looking forward to going at all. I don't feel like I know him any more. I am sure all of this will pass after we spend some time together.
I just wondered if anyone else has felt this way. Maybe I just needed to vent because I am not one to talk to anyone about my marriage because it has always been very sacred.
I love my husband with all my heart, but right now, I don't like him at all.