Lonely....in a funk
I've searched desperately for a place I can share thoughts. I hope that it goes no where else, like Facebook for all to see. This is between you all and me privately.
Anyways I woke up many times last night reaching over to his side of the bed. He wasn't there. Such a lonely feeling. This is the first time this in the last year that I've felt such dread and all alone.
I don't want him to stop and I don't want to go back to where we use to live. We moved here for the job.
About me.... After working 27 years at the same place I got burnt out and ended up retiring and getting a pension. So i have a lot of time on my hands.
I don't make friends easily but my neighbors have been real friendly and supportive.
I just don't know what do with myself anymore. It's never been this bad. I use to like when he goes away but it feels different for some reason.
Thank you for reading my poor me story. I just HAD to get it out. There's no one else to talk to.