Where do I even begin!?
Alright, so I just married my husband on July 7th of this year. Our relationship progressed very quickly (we met only a year ago or so).
When I first met him he was unemployed. So, I encouraged him to find work. Much to my dismay he decided on trucking.
Now, I had always known myself enough that I would have a hard time with a career that would take my man away from me for extended periods of time. But, I set out to do my best at supporting him and hopefully get to the point where one day we could find a better alternative than OTR trucking.
The company he works for is 21 days out, 3 days home. The first couple months were rough. I admit I was struggling with it and made sure he knew that.
Well, here comes mid-December of 2011. We take a trip to Disneyland where he proposed... 2 or 3 days later- he is back on the road. 3 weeks later (early January of this year) he comes onto home time. So, I go pick him up at the shop (the truck needed service) and spend the day with him as usual and happy to have him home. Then IT happened...
We were getting ready to leave to pick up my daughter from school and I saw something strange on his phone. I asked what it was and he wouldn't show me. Well, after picking up my daughter I demanded he show me because it just wasn't feeling right.
He handed me his phone and BAM! It's a picture of another woman along with a text message conversation that was definitely not appropriate. Long story short... He was "lonely" at night so he wanted a "friend" to talk to. So, he met her online on a social networking site and exchanged phone numbers.
Of course he never informed her that he was engaged. So, things progressed as most young, new relationships would. Now, they never met in person and things never got SUPER inappropriate according to him. But, it was still unfaithful and broke my heart.
As if that wasn't bad enough, a few days later my dad ended up in the hospital and passed away about 4 days later (after my fiance was back on the road).
So, I'm trying to put my trust back in him and what does he do? He LIES to me multiple times about watching porn. Now, porn is not my favorite thing... But, LYING? After everything else?
Needless to say, trust doesn't exist at this point. And, in my opinion, trucking played a role in all of it.
So, I need advice, input, anything to help me figure out where to go from here. I love this man more than words can express and I want it to work. Is it possible?