Truckers chose to escape responsibility of life and they want the secret life
I have been 30 years he has been gone 30 years and future he will b gone for another 30 years. I get Saturday's with him sometimes all day in silence and others I get sex time. He likes that he has to only take care of himself. I'm the responsible one he's the the one that loves no boundaries but I can't do anything he does he will leave me..
He says he loves me but his actions says I'm holding him back. He has done a lot of hurtful things to me immoral things and women but me I'm his bitch and his words lets fuck. He comes in on Saturday turns on tv screaming loud and nothing but Horror shows and tells the boys shut up and go to your room as for me get clothes washed get food for the week and sit beside him in silence while he plays on his phone and he don't even watch the tv.
Some Saturday's he stays gone with buddies or invites them over without me knowing an stays in the shed. I would work and come home and have a houseful of strangers in my house the whole time he is home and I suppose to cook and clean for them and he wouldn't let me know what his plans were.
I asked him the other day what r your future plans for us. Keep driving the truck and till I he dies. My hope was he would wanted was trying to get home more and start spending more time together that we have lacked over the years.
My heart broke I'm still not in his future so I quess I am suppose to be alone and see him 1 day a week and say I'm happily married. Lonely hurt and no future with him. He gives me money to buy things to go away. All he wants is to grope me all day and b silent.
If a friend calls he is out of here. I ask him for help he replies do what u want. He has been with 2 places I wanted to go mall once and church once. He just found out the 25 years I worked he thought I was a receptionist his buddy had to tell him that I was an office manager and his mouth drop. What a life.
My future plans is not to be alone and start enjoying life with someone that loves and respects me not to b his servant.
I'm hurt deeply!