The struggle is REAL!

by Pearl

I’ve been married to my truck driver Husband for 5 years this May. He has 2 girls now 8 and 10 and I have 2 now 20 and 14.

We started out with just my 2 kids which was already hard because my son has grand mal seizures, and ADHD, and my daughter has asbergers seizures, incontnence, and visual impairment with a prosthetic eye.

I’ve never been able to hold down a job because my youngest requires so much attention, I’ve been fortunate enough to stay home and care for her.

A couple of years ago we got a Lawyer and fought for custody for my husbands 2 girls. There was CPS involvement and his oldest was being abused, the court awarded us custody of his oldest. She’s been with us for 2 years now.

Recently this past November his Ex wife reached out to my husband asking us to take his youngest because his ex was in an abusive relationship. She now resides with us. She takes medication for ADHD.

So now you know my history, it’s been the most hardest trail in my life. I’ve been so stressed that I had pericardial effusion with tamponade which means my hearts lining filled with 2 liters of fluid and my heart collapsed under the pressure and was saved from death.

It’s been so so hard and lonely. Being a truckers wife isn’t for the faint of heart... or is it? I have a faith in the Father above, and I’ve learned that so much of training or even functioning is learned how to operate in Kaos.

If we are to continue in this life as followers of God then we will go through tough trails. It’s how we come out of them in the end. Being refined through the fire is so hard and painful trust me I know. My life is in utter Kaos but I pray everyday Father help me and sustain me today.

My daughter has recently been diognosed with scoliosis and just adds to the stress, along with her severe mood disorders, and numerous medications she’s on. Yes truthfully my head wants to explode and I want to go 51 50!!! It’s literally nonstop in my house.

All this I’m taking on (with the fathers strenghth) My Husband on the other hand is so loving and supporting and when he gets home he works hard to help me and the kids. I see he’s so tired when he gets home, but he still helps with out complaining.

The struggle is real but I am blessed!

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