not sure what i'm most affraid of about becoming a trucker's wife

by Brinttnee Joy
(orange,TX)

well I'll start by saying I'm fixing to become a trucker's wife. My teddy and i have a very complicated relationship as it is. Now on the 30th he's goin to school for Pam and he's gonna be gone for a long while.

I feel like I'm being selfish and shouldn't but when can i? he has broken his back twice so there isn't going to be another opportunity like this for him to start a career again, so i really want to support him.

But, being the daughter of a trucker's wife i know this is a challenging option for our relationship.

I miss him and he hasn't even packed for the road yet!!!!!i always had plans to become a mother, a college graduate,other things ,anything, but a trucker's wife.

i saw all the hurt my mom endured being separated from her man, and that terrifies me. but yet as i know I'm now gonna travel the same road.

I don't know if its becoming more like her or being alone, raising the kids alone or just not being strong enough for my responsibilities is what I'm most afraid of.