Married but feeling Single
Hi everyone. Not sure how to start. My name is kim. Been married to a trucker for over 17 years now. He is a long haul trucker, sometimes never see him but once or twice a month. And then it's just for 1-2 days at most.
We have a 16 year old daughter, who seems to take it all in stride. After all, it is all she has ever known. Her Daddy is never home. End of story. Mommy takes care of everything. Including a 81 year old, disabled grandmother, who needs constant care, and a agoraphobic 24 year old son from my previous marriage who, on occasion can become violent with me, only with me, never with my daughter or my mother.
So when I ask my husband for help, he tells me he does his part (bringing in the money) and for me to do my part. The money situation is another sore spot. He keeps control of the money, I am on an allowance.
Since I cannot work, due to so many responsibilities at home, he claims I do not contribute to the family. Why don't I leave? Because I have no way to support my ailing mother, my socially deficient son or my daughter. My life is a nightmare. If not for my daughter, I would def kill myself,no kidding, I would in a heartbeat. But she needs me, at least for a few more years...then we will see.
And that is my story.My life. Did I mention I also have fibromyalgia, which causes me unbearable, agonizing pain every single day of my life? Yet, I clean, cook, run errands, pay bills,(with what little money he leaves me) I go to churches for handouts for food because there is never enough money for food, even though his checks are over $1,200.00 a week.
Sorry for my bad typing I also need glasses which he will not let me get. He refuses to let me apply for Obama care or a medical card. Thank you for hearing me out. I really appreciate it and I am sorry that all I did was whine.