My 1st marriage was to a cop, stayed up worrying about him night after night. He cheated after 10 yrs of marriage & 2 amazing little boys. Thought my world was over til I met my husband now.
We have an amazing little girl who is now 8 mos old. He had a great job & was unexpectedly laid off. He used to drive long-haul 5 yrs ago, but then he was single, with nothing to hold him back. He loves trucking, all he ever talked about & getting laid off seemed to be his reason for going back.
Now he's working for Werner & just finished his training with a co-driver & is getting assigned his truck in 2 days. Mind you, he left out on 12/27 & its now 1/16 & he informed me tonight that he may or may not be home on the 20th as originally planned. Depends on where they send him.
This has been so lonely w/out him. I'm trying to be strong & keep my mind occupied while caring for my 3 children, but I feel like I'm always in this bad mood. I never want to go anywhere or do anything.
My husband calls me numerous times throughout the day to see how we are & to check in, but I feel like I'm married to my phone! Will this feeling of loneliness get easier?
I went from worrying about a cop, to worrying about my trucker. And to be honest, in my mind being a trucker is just as dangerous, if not more.
I'm so happy I found this website, to know there are other women, mothers, going through the same thing.
Please lift me up, do you ever really get used to being alone for weeks at a time???
