Just tired of it. Life as a truckers wife sucks.

It sucks. If your man can do something else, do it. Our problem is there is no other job that will pay our bills. I quit my job a yr ago to stay home with our 3, 4 and 8 yr old. I didnt make enough to even contribute towards bills. I am so tired. The only family I have that helps is the great grandparents. Not only them but I get so so so tired of asking people to help. We live in an old farm house, something is always breaking down. There are so many things that need done for the past year, that i dont think will ever get done. It just gets tiring. My husband has drove a truck for 8 yrs. Most of the time I dont have any motivation to get anything beyond what I have to do done. My friends dont understand. You dont get used to it, I think it just gets worse. There is nothing good about it. Most of the time I have a negative attitude because I have no help. I beleive there are people out there that are looking for you to do something wrong. I try to keep my kids in activities so they can experience things, but it tires me out a lot. Right now, Im really down. Things need to change soon. Anyone out there know what Im saying. I need help. How do I stay positive/motivated?